So, the truth is there hasn’t been any travel or adventure in my life for months, I’m guessing the last time I felt like a 22 year old, was the last post I had made here. I wont get into all the details, but in the last 5 or 6 months my life has been twisted upside down. Was it my fault? I guess people who don’t really know me or the things that have been going on would say that -yes everything was 100% my fault. I was uncomfortably obsessive about everything in my life. Appearance, food, friends and keeping my emotions hidden until I completely broke down were huge obstacles that I couldn’t overcome ,yet I was so delusional that I thought I was fine. I believe a lot of it was my fault, letting years and years of being uncomfortable in my own skin take a sever toll on my mind, body and family and friends. I think it came to a point where I knew in my mind that I was doing things all wrong, but couldn’t come forward and tell anyone I had a problem. I would say that in the beginning, probably 2 years ago, yes it was my fault. I should have shut out all the negatives I had about myself and changed the way I was thinking, but I had no idea at that point how out of control my life would get.
I have had many more lows than highs the last few months, but I am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. For some reason, I thought I was alone, in my own little darkness even knowing there are so many people out there are and at some point have gone through a similar situation. I understand, that I am not alone, and neither are you.
I have been an avid reader of blogs for the past year. I don’t really comment much on other blogs, but I read them everyday. I started Truth, Travel and Adventure to get my thoughts out and hopefully someday connect with people.
If you read my post and have felt the way I have or you know someone who is or has gone through something similar, please go to Operation Beautiful. Caitlin created this “sticky note” movement, for women of all ages. Check out Operation Beautiful and help with this positive project.
I promise, happier news to come soon!
It is good to be back.